These kids with their self-therapy. Smoking pot and smoking tobacco and smoking anything and everything that’ll take the edge off. Taking drags. Filling their lungs with smoke. Smoke. Vapor. Fire. Their chests full. Full of smoke and full of something else too. Yes! Secrets! Young chests. So promising and yet weighed down. Turned into graveyards. Full of dead, rotting secrets. These kids with their self-therapy. Smoking pot and smoking tobacco and smoking who knows what to empty that graveyard. Anything that drives the ghosts out.

These kids with their self-therapy. Collecting Vinyl and collecting CD’s and surfing the web. Searching. Looking, looking, looking. Looking for anything that’ll drown out the white noise. Music loud enough. Loud enough to drive everything out. Just to stop thinking. Don’t think. Don’t think. Don’t think. And when the music stops working?

These kids with their self-therapy. Banging away on something. Banging away on their drums or their keyboards. Just pounding, pummeling away on something, anything. Brushing. Swiping. Painting. Painting it red or painting it black. Working, working, working on anything. A canvas, a wall, a computer. Just to keep it going. Keep it flowing. Keep moving, keep moving, keep moving. You can’t be dead if you keep moving. Right? These kids.

These kids with their self-therapy. Just pouring themselves out. Pouring, raining, hailing their rage, their frustrations, their whole selves. Wrapping their demons up. Dressing them up. Dressing them up only to throw them. Throw them out into the void. Hoping, praying, pleading. Just to be heard. Nothing more. Just hear us, hear us, hear us. LOOK at us. Look AT us. Look at US. Do you? See? Do you see? Do you hear? Do you understand?

These kids with their self-therapy. Do you think they’ll give up? These kids who’ve been there done that all. These kids aren’t kids anymore. And you know what else? Just because you won’t acknowledge their problems doesn’t mean they won’t find themselves a solution. Sir.

Tania Teeyaah Umar For Beyond Sanity Publishing

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